If you haven’t seen already, I lost my job on Friday.
I managed to stay busy until now so I didn’t have time to really think about it. But right now I’m out of urgent to-dos, and now it’s hitting. Thankfully I talk to my therapist tomorrow, because I feel very lost right now.
I’m going to try a technique Kortny taught me: Worst, Best, Most Likely
What’s my Worst case scenario (be reasonable here)?
I have to put Beyonce down and rehome all of my animals.
What’s the Best case scenario?
Somehow I get enough $ to keep most of my critters, do necessary enclosure upgrades, and pay for my CRBE trip.
Now what’s the Most Likely scenario?
I have to sell off most of my Critters for now and work on saving for more adventures in 2023.
Hmm. I’m not sure how I feel now or whether that helped.
Ok, let’s try this. My BMAC takes off AND I get great severance AND I get a great new job. What would I do?
Well that seems unlikely, but ok. I come up with some fun merchandise to send to supporters and to sell at events/online. I get all the vet treatments for Beyonce and I replace the MTS family enclosure. I upgrade the lights for the PTS and PBS. I pay for myself and my team to attend the CRBE, maybe even other upcoming expos. I start the new job in the fall and the job is so interesting I don’t even care that it’s winter again.
This is such a weird post. Maybe I’m just thinking aloud, or maybe I’m sharing in the hopes others might help me.
Do I need help? I don’t know. I honestly can’t tell if I’m falling apart or coping well.
There’s a thunderstorm outside. I’m going to close the computer and go watch the rain. I hope y’all are doing well this evening.